the graces that comes from borkenness
Just came back from a good trip with beautiful friends. And the minute I step off the plane, something of the past hit me and its present has definitely made my heart sink of what felt like the depths of a lonely lake. All the happiness of just coming from a great adventure, meeting people, starting fresh felt like such a distant memory from what currently clouded my thoughts. The weather was so gloomy, my best friend left on a trip, and the ones I had on the island were entertaining that past of mines that I can’t be a part of.
But of course by God’s grace, I know why he put me in that situation. To remind me of the awesome life I have now, and to put him back in the center of it. To remind me that HE was the one who blessed me with these happiness I just had and have had. If it wasn’t for that bad past, I wouldn’t be living the happiness I have now. Because recently, I have been feeling “lucky”, which is far from what I am living now. Luck is something that is not suppose to happen, but blessings is something thats MEANT to happen. Just for you given by HIM.
So yes I was put in a bad state of mind, but God quickly drew me back to the reality of HIS love. Thank you Lord, I needed that reminder sooo bad.
